Lucky much?

Lucky much?
by Gudang

After I flunked the second quiz in Business Law, I thought of it as my first downfall in College. It was the Second Semester of being a freshman. It was the start of dueling with the major subjects. The First Semester consisted of the General Curriculum (the minor subjects).

For a First Year student, who’s just starting College life, everything was just all about getting ‘3.00’ (the passing grade) for any subject. ‘Lucky’ is what they call the students who were able to get a grade higher than ‘3.00’. Once, I belonged to that group of students who thinks that way, and I don’t actually care if I would get a ‘3.00’ too. I guess it was a sheer luck that I never get myself a grade lower than ‘1.75’ the First Semester. Who cares, though? I’m just starting yet.

I got a bit anxious then when I encountered my first ever two major subjects the Second Semester. It’s an awkward thing to say, but I think my ‘being laidback’ days were over. Those subjects frightened me to the extent that I never would want myself to get failed in any quiz, only I was not that type of person who wanted to nag or express my fears. Sure, my siblings were of great help because they seem to know the dos and don’ts of a student pursing a course like mine. They’ve been tutoring me and giving me some tips. And there is no reason for me to give this whole thing up and fail.

When I got my second quiz in Law failed, I have begun to ponder: what if “Accountancy” is never really for me? A lot of sleepless nights were spent thinking. Sure, a failed quiz has almost ruined everything. It seems like I can never get over it, but I did. I’m overreacting, okay? I’m just not used to the fact that I failed a major exam of a major subject. It was my first time in College to get a mark like that. I came to think of it, and I realized another quiz will be given; I can still make up for the failed quiz. It wasn’t the end of the world yet. Ha-ha! The Second Semester’s fears were fought by having a handful of ‘guts’, another handful for ‘determination’, and a lot of prayers all through out.

Sure, I’m not the best in my class. I never was, but I cope up. Definitely, not the one you can admire or be inspired of. I was just one of those few who kept telling herself not to worry much, and it might work out somehow.

It was also in Second Semester that I have learned a new study habit. It was a torture. I made night times a nightmare by making it a day time, and vice versa. I sleep at day time; I study at night time until dawn. And during that time, I kept wishing that the cups of coffee I drank were enough to keep me awake while reviewing my notes. I’ll sleep for an hour or two. And I’m back at the school again, gathering some time alone, reviewing and checking for the last minute if those things I reviewed that night were able to stay in my head. It was a really troublesome study habit; my parents didn’t like the idea. But hey, it helped! Then I got my Second Semester grades and they were all fine. No grade of ‘3.00’ and lower than that. Luck again? Maybe.

Just when I thought the trials for my first year was over, another thing came up. I need to pass a Qualifying Exam for the admission of BS Accountancy as Second Year. I knew that sooner or later, it will come. It was a difficult exam, they say. Only a few were able to pass the last Qualifying Exam. I think, it was feared by most of us who will take it. It’s scary, you know, you’re unsure if you’ll pass. And the failure of that exam is much more of a downfall than that of a failed quiz. A lot of my classmates kept asking me on what will I do if I wasn’t able to make it. And I always answer them: “Well, ewan ko. Bahala na kung anong mangyare. Pero ayokong isipin na babagsak ako. Ayokong isipin ‘yung iba kong gagawin kung babagsak man ako, dahil ang gusto ko lang e pumasa.” It’s true; I don’t really want to think about it. Whatever happens happens. It is simply as I don’t want to fail, I want to pass and I need to focus on the goal. I took the said Qualifying Exam last March. Guess what? With luck again, I passed.

I might have got high marks in some exams, and surely, failed a number of them. But look, here I am now, still surviving College. With all the efforts, the guts and determination, and the abnormal routine of studying, it is all worth it, isn’t it? I’m always saying that I think maybe because of LUCK, I was able to get through. Okay, I was lying. I never believed in ‘chances’, nor in ‘luck’. But I do believe in will and determination, and of course, prayers.

I’m now waiting for another school year. I was thinking of how lucky could I get, and wondering how much worse could happen. I have to work harder. Well, what are the exceptions? There isn’t one. I’m obliged to study harder, for if BS Accountancy is not for me, I would be raising hell and make it want me. I’ve got to get better at this because things are not getting easier as I progress. It will be a lot bloodier, surely. Long years ahead!

–Actually, I wrote this for a Contest, only to find out, HINDI PALA GANUN!!! Haha. Yung Top 10 Most Influential Blogger? Haha. All right, kapalmuks! So what? Haha. Wala lang, if ever na rin siguro mabasa ‘to ng mga estudyanteng katulad ko, okay na din na ma-feel good sila para sa sarili nilang kakayahan, DIBA!

Nagkamali ako eh. Akala ko ‘entry’ as in entry na susulat ka. Pero anyway, so much for that. At least I wrote something with sense, i think? Whachuthink?! Haha :D